Monologue-ing Chris

開始換自己睡不了了，右眼上窩的痠疼又出現，不揉它了，不知道血絡經脈的確切位置的。清晨四點多看到 MSN 傳來那些果決卻喪氣的話，配著台灣、英國這一場來去匆匆，讀《樂生現狀：假續住、真迫遷；假保留，真清拆》時，視線越來越模糊，淚開始大顆大顆落。那些不獨親其親，好使老有所終^註的，發願了，卻只能闔眼讓它消散了，是嗎？似是空僅有熱烈肉身的人兒，還能抗拒什麼呢？好虛弱啊！當現實世界歡樂地手牽手（惡狠狠）讓一切不得其道而行，再多的 refu-sive 心情，都是徒勞。

This is a seminar presented by Dr. Claire Smetherham about the Leverhulme funded project 'Globalisation – the case of academic staff'. Her conclusions at that moment were: (i) globalisation is an elite phenomenon, (ii) there are two different kinds of academic markets - one where shortages are due to under-supply/recruitment in the UK (due to skills shortages and/or the attractiveness of commercial markets), consequently opening spaces for overseas people, and, another where the UK is simply seen as a good place to be, and (iii) alongside the concentration of funding argument, both forces are likely operating to some degree.

Not only Papal power, every kind of 'power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely (Dalberg-Acton, 1887)'. It is bad to be oppressed by a minority (sic, Dalberg-Acton, 1???), but it is, agreed personally as a minority here and there, even worse to be oppressed by a majority indeed. Although Dalberg-Acton was a historian (oh come on, it's not Kostova's novel), he saw clearly what democracy, party politics and majority tyranny were/will be and stated 'the one pervading evil of democracy is the tyranny of the majority, or rather of that party, not always the majority, that succeeds, by force or fraud, in carrying elections.' The mentioned suddenly reminded me of Toyama Kōichi's MV (with some thoughts followed) seen on the other day. This is not kuso at all; this is cruel.

 每個孩子都有幸福的權利...

因為好鄰居的關係，阿猜嬤的兒子，柯得隆老闆和老闆娘的蓮子木耳，才能被汀狗喝到那份用心熬煮和不甜膩的沁涼好味道。

六月一日晚，到站的公車瘖啞地說著「教養院，Home for the Disabled」時，我再次黑線密佈地無言。

因為資深文字Ｘ（消音）姐的用功（因為之因為乃是我和另一個在 quarterlife crisis 裡掙扎的後輩現在的主力工作需要）而討論到某尼特 / 飛特族名詞，我在孤狗打了兩個關鍵字：「天下」和「下流」，非常意味深長地讓這兩字與自己相視而笑。